Holy Flying Fuck D:

I hate that I miss you.. because I no longer have you.
And I hate that I have somebody, and I still want you.
No wonder why my dreams are of me running, I'm keeping this secret bottled up.
:/

ok so all i can say is I GIVE UP!
i give up on life, i give up on love, i give up on hope
im just completly giving up.
im not letting my gaurd down again.

I feel like someone cut out my heart and stepped on it in front of me. My life has gone from bad, to worse to great to unbelieveable and now I just dont care.

Aiden's telling me we need a "breal" because her mom needs her to get her grades up.... WTF do u think thats doing to me?? When I just got home from seeing u 2 days ago?? Im dead inside and I cant stop crying, havent for the past 2 hours..

ALL my teachers at my school are being fired because of budget cuts and I wanna drop out now because they were the only thing keeping me in my High school.... I started a potition to keep them but I feel like it wont work.

I've never felt more alone... EVER..Not when Ryan killed himself because I ignored him, not Steph leaving me and ignoring me for weeks after our 6 month annniversary, I told her she was my life and soul, finding out I was pregnaunt with my first real boyfriend "true loves" baby, not when I was cheated on by him, ... nothing compares to how I feel right now... I want to die, I wish I would.

I cant think and I cant feel.. Im just numb. I see no point in trying anymore.. In anything, I just get hurt or kicked in the face or heart broken. And Im tired of it...

Nothing I do is good enough.. I just dont care.