And every time you speak her name does she know
how you told me you'd hold me until you died...
Till you died....but you're still alive... And everytime
I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it.

HAHAHA, I fucking hate you. And I didn't think that was possible.

maybe im just a bit insensitive?? perhaps i block my own emotions so much that i dont understand when someone acts on their own? why i think they are often overreacting and should get a grip on theirselves...perhaps i should get a grip on my own emotions and realize what its like to have a heart o.o

I will rape your face, thank-you and goodnight.

had your heart broken

but the hope handed to you in the same hour...

that is a weird feeling

im not sure whether to carry on crying my eyes out

or to try and figure out what to do next

sometimes for her just to say "i love you"

is all i'll ever need

aslong as i have her


Ever had one of those people that you just can't seem to let go of and they can't let go of you? I'm in one of those situations where it's a girl and I just don't know if the trust is there, we've got a long checkered history between us, with some pretty rough patches between us because of something she did that hurt me really bad. she wants us to both forget about and move on together but I just don't know if I can trust her... the paranoia just keeps getting worse, I want to care but somethings are just hard to overlook.


mother fucking pissed off

had an completely epic weekend

but it gets put on a fucking downer

im angry i want to punch anything

and just freak the fuck out

why

tbh i cba to go into it cause i'll probably get something wrong

but im annoyed cause im not fucking listened to when all im trying to do is defend my self for a valid reason..that being im pushed i'll push the fuck back...
but im putting as much as i humanly can aside to put up with something that is winding me up cause its so stupid

but no im not allowed to explain that im putting alot of effort in to deal with it and get the fuck on

but hell if its so fucking easy for all the anger to be fucking directed at me and pin me the same fucking thing

so fucking be it just dont expect me to be fucking happy about it

just ugh

im actually that fucking pissed off

when it couldve been resolved so much simpler

but no have a go at me for "not listening" when i have been all along

tbh i dont want to be angry at all i cant help it when it escalates and then i get my control of it taken from me so i cant do shit


tbh i think the other sides the problem im just stuck cause its obviously my fault

FOR DOING NOTHING

apart from being a sarcastic cunt

thats all i'll need.regardless

FUCK YOU FOR WAKING ME UP!

Iv never felt so hurt and broken before..
i dont want to wake when i fall asleep, please. I dont wanna wake...
Someone make the pain stop, please. It hurts so fucking bad.

If you really don't want me in your life then please say so,
Don't pretend that you enjoy my company,
i will honestly leave you alone,
i will go away and disappear,
Just like i came in your life,
I will do anything for your sake,
I will stop loving you, if that's what you wish,
But please don't ask me to stop remembering you,
because that's the only way i can stay alive,
Knowing that you're happy, keeps me going,
Knowing that you're smiling, removes all my pain,
Please don't ask me to stop loving, just like that,
I need a little time, i sure will try,
I'll hide my love,
i'll conceal my tears,
but please dear don't look too deep into these eyes
or you might find what i fear,
I'll turn my head,
I'll try my best to lie to myself,
That i don't love you,
that you don't deserve me,
I'll try my best to lie to myself,
that i don't care about you,
that I don't miss you,
I'll try my best to lie to myself,
that I've moved on, and that you're my past,
It hurts real bad,
But for the sake of your happiness,
I'll sacrifice my love, my happiness
For the sake of your love and happiness,
i shall go away, never to return again

Suffrage of a different sort,
one that bent her mind and
burdened her body.
It captured her
and didn't let her leave.

She collapsed, from the inside out.

[I need more than what you can offer me
or what your mind can comprehend.]


My world is a monstrosity.
Filled to the brim with razorblades, crack pipes and empty whiskey bottles.
My lungs cry for pure oxygen, my liver is long gone,
and my arms...
my arms are covered on scars from you.


I remember the first day my world came crashing.
You were there, laughing.
My whiskey turned to water and my crack pipe shattered.
Those damn bugs won't stay still.
I'll spare my lungs this time, injecting my veins full of poison.
My liver thanks me.


Months go by and you can see my ribs.
I have become the skeleton I once feared.
My veins have collapsed and my lungs have turned to dust.
The stinging burn on my nose is constant,
my brain slowly decapitating.


I look at you with my bloodshot eyes, raising a bony hand and whisper...


The way he speaks to her makes her heart warm again..
Pulsing, beating red hot blood through her veins.
He makes her smile,
Oh, what a smile.
One that remained hidden for years..and yet such a simple sentence flowing from his luscious lips brought it out of hiding.
He ignited such a fire in her, such desire.
She craves for more.

This Is No Love Story

I wish I were anyone else but me, just for a moment.
A moment's all I need.
I would sail away, to the farthest sea, just to be anyone but me.

You were here in my life for so long, you were my best friend.
You understood me when others didn't.
You stood by me when I was at my worst.
You were an amazing person, but you injected yourself full of poison.
Did you want to die, or did you want that high?
I'm pretty sure it was both.
Honestly though, I don't care if dying was your choice. I still love you, and I'll always miss you.

You guys are seriously stupid.
You don't see what's in front of you.

That shy, quiet girl that always gives you compliments, passes you in the halls and blushes whenever you say 'hey'
Is
Deeply
In
Love
With
You.

She's too afraid you'll break her heart, so she's not going to tell you.
Its up to you to go up to her with two dozen of her favorite flowers, kiss her on the hand, and tell her, 'i love you too.'


His breathtaking eyes make me stare.
His smile released butterflies in my stomach.
His voice makes me melt.
Every time he whispers "I love you," my brain turns to mush, my heart stops, and I am frozen in that moment.

He is the reason I lay awake at night, staring at the ceiling.
He is the reason I am an insomniac.

She is dressed in a silvery white gown, looking so beautiful, so angelic. Her midnight-black hair frames her soft face, guiding you to her gray-blue eyes...those piercing eyes…every time you look into them, she makes you drown. Her body is slender, so fragile, as if a single touch would shatter her.

Walking to the bathroom, she slips out of her gown- revealing a black and blue body. The deep gashes in her back are fresh, proof of her disobedience. Scars cover her body beneath the bruises; the whip had been cruel to her.
She turns on the water, filling the tub full of icy water- makeup running down her porcelain face. She holds a knife in her hand, and she gently runs the blade across her arm, teasing her skin, splitting it slightly. The crimson flows from her arm, dripping onto the tub, turning its unstained white pink.

For the first time since she had fallen to him, she smiled.

She climbs into the tub; the cold water sends shivers of numbness throughout her body. Submerging herself fully into the water, she waits. Her blood vessels constrict, her heart slows.

She digs the knife into her flesh once more, letting the warm crimson tides mix with the freezing water.

Closing her eyes, she slowly fades away.

Blow

White indulgence, lines of pleasure
sought out by all the party people.
Get in groups, now its those people
who lay strewn amongst the floor.

Let me just collect myself,
I can do one more.

Escaping in the clutches of a gripping powder,
making you its slave.
All hail, mighty master,
take me away.
I indulge in what you bring me,
and in how I can escape.

Must it be so powerful against my will,
that I cannot be me?
Apparently, it will defeat me
and one day, I will tap out.


We only love what we do not completely possess.

Without passion, man is a mere latent force and possibility, like the flint which awaits the shock of the iron before it can give forth its spark.

You can fool some of the people all of the time.
You can fool all of the people some of the time.
But you can't fool all of the people all of the time.

You can't tell which way the train went just by looking at the tracks.

Sometimes in life the glass seems half empty, sometimes it seems half full, and sometimes the glass is twice as large as it needs to be.

It is hard to make anything foolproof, because fools are so ingenious.

Time past is time gone.

Minds are like parachutes, if they are closed they won't hold you up.

Mistakes are stepping stones to the future.

People seldom know what they want until you give them what they don't want.

Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.

Don't waste tears on what might have been.

We, the unwilling, led by the unknowing, are doing the impossible for the ungrateful.

Genius has its limits, stupidity has none.

We may want what we want when we want it but more often we get what we get when we get it.

It's not what they take away from you that counts, it's what you choose to do with what you have left.

If we can go deep into ourselves we will find we possess exactly what it is we desire.

We have done so much, for so long, with so little, we are now qualified to do anything with nothing.