Im dead inside..

I Felt ill, that was all
Andd i needed the loo so i went downstairs
Then i went all funny, i felt sick, i went clammy
Erghh, i tried to get back to bed, but i could only get to the upstairs bathroom
So i sat on the side of the bath
Everything was going fuzzy
I can remember my mum coming in
Then the next thing i knew i woke up in an ambulance
I was proper fucked up D:
Apparently i had a fit
then i passed out and fell backwards into the bath and wacked my head and neck on the side of it!
Hospitals are so shit, they couldn't do anything about it, so they sent me home at 5 o'clock in the morning
I mean i feel okay, it's just i think i've done something to my neck, cause it kills when i move it
But like since it happened
i've been a different person
I'm acting different
and it's scaring me :/


i want to start over, begin fresh. I know lately I've been different, I'm sorry. i feel my emotions building up. I love you, don't stop, for if you do i will be shattered. Your more than perfect, your the best. I know i may a little hard to handle, but so far you've been the first to do it. the first day i hold you, will be the start of my new life, you said that. I don't want this to end, i want you forever. She can't take you away from me, i won't allow it. because your gonna be the one to save me from this mess, after all your my wonderful. i wish the wind would take me away from this place, and bring me to you.


This love,This pain,Is pulling me away
away,from,all your love and
and all the hate,its killing me
me inside,to just fucking,fucking think about you
You make me sick,look what you did to me,
Im fucking dieing now,and you dont give a motherfucking damn,
why did i even love you,why did i even care,i was warned,
you used me,for your own fun little fucking games,
you used me,what a fucking waste of my time,
i wish you would die, die just like i did,from the pain,
my hearts a failure,its filled with pain,
i give you the love,this love,this love,
but i feel the pain,this pain,this pain,
dont come runing back to me,i dont want your filthy so called love,
all it did was fill me with hate,i would cry my eyes out,
but id rather see you cry at my fucking funeral,
i dont give a damn any more,life is a waste to me,
so go on and keep your so called love,
i hope you know i will always feel this pain and,
and hold this hate,your dead to me now